Once upon a time in a split second a long time ago
Actually a fragment of a split second, so fast my mind couldn’t open the lens
This breeze went through me, through my bones & soul, I actually felt for a [split] moment the realness of that decision
It whistled through me and I swear time stopped so still just long enough – just just long enough I could breathe
It was pure [but I can’t explain], it was so powerful yet didn’t diminish
It wasn’t amber, no, more like that white light they say you see at [moment of] death, but alive, so alive
I felt every cell in my body [and mind] [and soul] light up like the biggest Christmas tree you could imagine [you couldn’t]
For just that moment which was a tiny speck in the universe’s time, which actually felt like I’d dropped out into another lifetime and spent eternity there then returned
I was the wind + sun + sky
I was the air through the tree
I was the vibration of the sound of wings beating, ice melting, clouds moving
I was the gap between the seconds on the clock
So still yet moving, static yet everywhere
+ it occurred to me
My eyes were wide wide open, looking at an entire valley of my being
where yesterdays+tomorrows+this today merged into sand, rocks
sea
Where one heartbeat of my billion erupted into clarity and polished chrome awarness
Oh it was glorious
I sat there feeling it, watching the sky, never intrepid
If only I could put it into words or bottle it up you’d see
you’d see.