A choice is just a moment, a reflection splashing from
crystalline water with the upmost precision and dynamics
From a current unseen yet powerful, deadly, destructive
with the confidence of the ice surface breaking, snapping
luring out from underneath languorous ill feeling and resentment
And now it’s a dive upwards, fear and mocking and self-hate in one arrow, spear
headed fast towards the air, horizon, future
And angry though it is, it flies and soars with grace, with the arrogance of broken introspection
It’s a launch that can’t be undone
A decision that does not allow rethinking to be fostered
Because no matter all the doubt and will in the world
this moment has been made
it has been festering and growing with ever more detemination
since my heart gave it first beat.